As usual, I was industrious in thinking I could actively participate in the 31 Days challenge. Yes, I've been working to find my rhythm. Some progress has been made. But blogging is a luxury, a hobby that is quite low on the priority list currently. And finding a rhythm has meant being purposeful about my time.
But, in the spirit of the journey, here is a post to tie up this month and my experiences.
The beginning of the month felt extremely challenging. My work schedule and life seemed to leave me little time for anything and quite exhausting. But I found myself more aware of life and the periods of time that presented challenges and the distractions in my day. I saw where I was most off-beat and discordant.
I have had to extend myself a lot of grace.
The last few weeks I've felt a bit more rhythmic. I'm learning what work schedule is most conducive to life. As I make my schedule going into the future I am keeping this in mind. Having 2-4 nights off in a row is important. Having a few weekend days off each month is too. I try to have the house and the family prepared for my shifts.
My kids have gotten used to the way I make their sandwiches and pack their lunches. Daddy just doesn't do it the same way. And while I am fine with telling them to eat it anyway--if I can make their lunches ahead of time, it's one less thing for Daddy to do and one less complaint I have to entertain. Hey---my kids ask for a lot I have to say no to right now, but I can say yes to this.
This morning while making their lunches I make 2 sets of sandwiches and packed up double the other lunch items. So tonight when I'm working, Bean just has to assemble their lunches. This is just one simple example of the new routines I am finding.
I've started running again, as well as other forms of exercise. Physical activity increases my energy, puts me in a good mood and feeds my soul. I have been so NOT in the rhythm of exercise that it's taking discipline to do it regularly again. But I don't have any excuses anymore, especially on the days I don't work and the kids are in school. I am a happier person when I exercise, so I know it's important to be disciplined and make it a non-negotiable. Some days it's a short neighborhood walk or a DVD workout at home. I tailor it to the day and my energy levels--what counts is I'm doing it.
Time with friends is so important to me. I went from working in an office with people I loved hanging out with, to spending 3-4 days a week with my nursing school buddies. Now the majority of my time is spent with my three little minions. I love them dearly, but mama needs friends! So I have been reaching out to the friends I've missed and not been able to spend time with. Meeting for coffee or breakfast, catching up on life and making plans for the next time we will hang out.
I am far from reaching the end of this journey. I have a lot of rhythm to find. There are overflowing closets, broken chairs and messy counter tops that need my attention. Like many, I find myself consumed with dozens of 5-minute tasks that eat up the day. This morning I sat at the computer for two hours, updating my work schedule for our family calendar, sending necessary emails, applying for a job and other small yet important tasks.
But I am learning and discovering. Experimenting and practicing.
The biggest truth I've discovered is that the true rhythm is found within. It won't exist in my schedule, routine or to-do list. I need to be at peace with who I am and where I am at. I need to feed my soul and care for my body. It is then that I find the best rhythm for the day, for the season of life. It is then that I care for my family the best, and that is what this season is truly about. The external is constantly changing. But the soundtrack of my day flows from inside me and I choose the songs with my actions, words and attitudes.
I discovered a new favorite song today, It Is Well sung by Kristin DiMarco. These lyrics resonated so deeply. (and it incorporates the refrain of one of my favorite old hymns)
Through it all, through it all
My eyes are on you.
It is well, with me.
The key words there "with me."
When my eyes are fixed on Jesus, through whatever life brings, it can be well.
It is well, with me.