Thursday, August 21, 2008

What God wants, God gets

I have an infinate amount of faith and trust in God. I've had the privilege of serving him my entire life. With all the twists and turns my life has taken, looking back I see God's hand in everything--even the most difficult or painful experiences.

However, that doesn't change the fact that I am a planner and am a bit of a control freak is some areas of my life. I certainly am not a Type A personality across the board--but I like to have a plan and I like it when things go according to plan. Of course there are areas I wish I was more more Type A (like cleaning and actual organization of my home).

So while I trust God--I still like to have a plan! And, most of my life has gone according to the plans I've laid out--in regards to jobs, schooling, children etc. I've always seen it as confirmation that my will and God's will are mostly in sync. Sure details often change, but the grand scope seems to work out.

One area that I'm a big control freak in is procreation or it's prevention! I learned how to track my cycle which is necessary for the form of birth control I use. I've been successful in this for a long time. Between the two girls and then the last several months.

Remember this post about the magic number of children that seems to exist for each individual/family? I guess I have confirmation that God agreed with my stance on it...but things aren't exactly according to the plan I had.

You've probably figured it out...I'm pregnant. A desired, but not a planned pregnancy! I was thinking we'd get pregnant sometime next year--but I guess God had other plans.

With all my planning and tracking, things somehow went awry! Not only did I get pregnant in spite of prevention, but I found out yesterday I am 4 weeks further along than I calculated. I went from 10 weeks to 14 weeks. Yikes!!

I can't decide if I have more shock about being pregnant to begin with or at being further along. I have known for several weeks now--from when I thought I was 5 weeks, but I was really 9. There's some "female facts" I'll spare you from in this forum. I honestly have no idea how this all is happening--except to say--God gets what he wants. God wanted us to have a baby this coming February and in spite of my planning and prevention--he made sure it happened.

I am thrilled to be having a third baby. It's kind of hard to comprehend at times since Gracie still feels like such a baby to me. But I guess at that point she'll be almost 2 and hopefully will seem older. We just told Miss Rose yesterday and she is excited. Her teacher said she talked about it all day at school today.

The timing will be interested. Baby will come probably days or a week after Miss Rose's birthday and just before Bean's birthday. I had hoped to have an "end of the year " baby to avoid sandwiching another birthday in the first half of the year. Since my church is without a senior pastor, the future of my job could be in question when one is hired. But--if God wanted this baby to come now--he must have a plan for everything else!

So, that hopefully explains a bit about why I haven't written much lately. Much of what's been in my head has been related to the pregnancy and I wanted to wait to share until after I'd seen a healthy baby on the ultrasound. Now I'll probably have SO much to say!

Remember, what God wants...God gets. You can plan all you want, but in the end it does come down to faith and trust.

6 comments:

  1. Wow. Still in shock! (I left a comment on your other blog first) Yep, that natural family planning will do that to ya! :) I'm so happy for you guys. It is so exciting... Micah and Jaden are 23 months apart so I know how that goes, and all 4 of our birthdays are within 6 weeks of each other (Jaden is May 16, Martin is May 25th, Micah is June 24th and I am July 12) It is a little bit of a bummer but fun at the same time :) I will be praying for you!!! I'm sure you will have a healthy and safe pregnancy.

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  2. Congrats! I am so happy for you. I love that God made the decision of when you were supposed to have your next baby. Love the title what God wants, God gets! It is so very true. You are an amazing mom and God obviously knows you will be ready when he/she arrives.

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  3. Yeah! Congratulations! Joe and I have learned that there is never a perfect time to have a baby, and to just be willing to adjust to what God gives us. I'm so excited for you! I may have told you this . . . my girls are 17 mo apart and then just 2 years to Owen. It will be a great span, and they will be best friends later. Your Miss Rose will grow up so much over the course of your pregnancy, probably not p-trained but much more independent. No wonder you keep posting your tired in facebook!

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  4. Looks like I found your blog at the perfect time! I love how you wrote this announcement. You remind me of me. LOL.

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  5. Congratulations!!! Another girl?! (smile)

    Thank you for praying for Katrin's mom. It will mean the world to them!

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  6. YAY!!...February's a great month....both my boys were born then....or should I say June is a good month, if you know what I mean :) Congratulations!!

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