Tuesday, June 24, 2014

dear daughters, we can do hard things

Dear Girls,

We are 41 days from my last final. This summer is hard, like we knew it would be. Your dad and I have no time together, which means we bicker more than usual. Which usually is never. By the end of each day, you all are fried and need extra mama time. The last two weekends I've basically been MIA for 2.5 days--working 12 hour nights and then sleeping during the day only to wake up and do it one more time. Yes, this is probably going to be reality once I have a job, but I won't have daytime school in the mix, so hopefully we will all adjust.

My daughters, you will have to do hard things. You will have to make momentary sacrifices for long term gains. You may have to give up time with your husbands, your children, for a worthy purpose. And it will hurt your heart to no end. You will ask God "why" and wonder if there wasn't a better way. You will wake up each day exhausted, feeling like you never slept. You will live caffeine. You may want to move to Mexico and live in a little shack, just so you can be with your kids all the time.

But girls, you have to trust. You have to trust in the God who leads you, the God who holds you, the God who strengthens you and will never forsake you. You have to trust that when you made the decision to embark upon a journey (whatever it may be) that it was God directing you and that means he will carry you. Day by day, moment by moment. He is with you.

I have had to say "no" to you far more than I would like already this summer. But I'm saying "no" now, so that I can say yes in the future. Yes to fun family outings and yes to playing a board game with you. Yes to camps and activities. I just want to be able to say yes.

Hang in there girls. Hang in there with me this summer. Hang in there when you are walking this path yourself. Don't let go. You are stronger than you think. You can do this.

We can do this.

Love, Mama