Thursday, October 2, 2014

31 days to finding rhythm: already off-beat

It was inevitable, right?
I determine to find a new rhythm in life, and life laughs and tries to throw me off-beat. One my first day of rhythm finding.
My kindergartener came home not looking or feeling too well on Tuesday. By the evening it was clear she was running a fever. And so I spent today mostly on the couch with her, because she is 5 and very attached to mommy when she isn't feeling well. 'Please sit with me mommy" is said many times throughout the day. And how do I say no? I can't and I don't need to.
Because sometimes life dictates the rhythm of the day. I can have great intentions and to-do lists, but when things change as they often do, I need to change my beat. I had some computer work to do, which prevented me from holding Bug's hand all morning, like she also wanted me to do, but I could sit right next to her on the couch and be productive. When the meds were strong and the fever was down I managed to get a few things done around the house and have it picked up and dishes done (big brownie points from the hubs when I do this) before I went to work tonight.
Spending some couch time with the kiddo also gave me some down-time, which I don't usually take on my own.
I learned an important lesson today, this first day of finding my rhythm.
When the rhythm changes, it's okay. Just go with the beat and do what needs to be done. Today I spent time with my sick Bug and was so thankful to be home with her. This is why working nights during the week works for my family. Tomorrow morning I will drive home and Bean will leave for work. Bug will get some quality time with the iPad while mama attempts to get some sleep. And hopefully she will go back to school on Friday.
What matters most at the end of the day is that my family feels loved and cared for by me and that I have served them well.