I have felt really tired this week. Especially getting up in the mornings. It's probably due to Daylight Savings Time. There are never enough hours in the day and getting up in the dark makes the day feel extra long right now.
It's rare to get hours back in the day, but I did today and I'm going to enjoy them and maybe I won't feel as tired tomorrow. We were supposed to have a 2-hour Girl Scout field trip this afternoon and I was bracing myself for the complaints of the other two children who aren't Girl Scouts because I decided to just take them along. Sometimes you just gotta suck it up!
But the field trip was cancelled at the last minute. While my Girl Scout was bummed, I breathed a silent sigh of relief. I was geared up and ready but a whole afternoon at home (it's a minimum day) sounds delightful. I'm at work 4 days a week right now and even though it's still 36-40 hours, "going to work" 4 days a week instead of the 3-12 hour shifts I got used to is extra exhausting. Because that's one more day to plan childcare, pack meals and figure out dinner when I get home.
So while the girls are enjoying some play time and screen time I decided to write here. In the next 30 minutes they are bound to be "bored" and arguing over toys.
I am a pretty driven person (hello two bachelor degrees, a master's degree and an RN license). I've been really enjoying running again and finding some new speed. I usually run on my days off but running does take time and energy (duh). I had to pep talk myself into taking a rest day today, even though I don't have to work. It was a better choice to have a quiet morning, do some cleaning and not feel rushed.
Sometimes you have to save the running shoes for the next day and put on your flip-flops.
I still wanted to run, but I know I got things done at home I wouldn't have done if I had gone running. I'm a firm believer in balance, but I also believe that balance changes day to day--because life is different every day and we wake up with different needs each day.
This is what usually happens on my days off:
We all have that one thing that easily absorbs our time if we let it. Maybe it's a Kardashian marathon or reading a book in one sitting. (I could easily get sucked into either). Sometimes we NEED to be sucked in to something, to have a Fringe Hour, to feed our soul, to turn our brain off.
But just like I have to turn around at some point on my runs and come home, we can't run away from life forever. There are things to get done.
Well, it's time to get a few more things done with these extra hours in my day.
Tomorrow I don't have to work until 10am, and you better believe I have a run planned in the morning.